have you ever been in a position where you are so not happy inside that everything else you tried or trying to do does not matter?

how do you keep smiling and engage in conversation with others when all you wanted to do is talk to one person that matter most?

its harder when other people think you are a strong person and hence the above will not happen to you.

my question is, how strong is strong? even Amy Fowler, the nerdy neurologist with strong believe in mind power became a needy person in the end.

sad but true.